What are best friends for...

*Model - Rayan, Gun held by Gagan, Taken in Sins ex driveway*

Brought to you by the 'Soulreefer-Sleepymaggie Timepass Club'

(Green Mutants Inc.)

G - Let me turn you around and build you into a jigsaw puzzle, let me rip you up for a change and turn you into a stain-glass window with a chip in the centre and I'll throw you to my mandalam and enjoy all the patterns you create. I'd love to watch you squirm all over my...
K - Squirm all over your what? Stop speaking to me like this, you’re making me feel uncomfortable.
G - Would you like to go away with me?
K - Where to..
G - A place where it wont be possible to find us.
K - We’ve never been found to begin with...

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K - What bothered you when you were a kid...
G - Stepping On Cracks. I would always avaoid them when I was little. It would amuse me when they filled up with water in the monsoons. That, and Evil Dead. Now that was some scary shit.
K - You were a wierd kid. Evil dead was so poorly made. It was like a fucking Ram Say movie.
G - Fuck Ram Say movies I was 10 years old and I spent half the movie behind a chair and the next three nights with the lights on
K – Wuss.
Have a light? I need a cancer break..

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K - So.. what was it like when your mom died ?
G - It wasnt any different. I just didnt get any home cooked meals any more. I was never very close to her.
She was just like any other woman to me.
K - Oh...Thats kinda sad.
G - No. I was never close to anyone to begin with. Never had any role models growing up. There were people going in and out of my life. Some stayed for a while, some didn't. ....and there was always the library.
K - You need to get laid. Seriously.
G - Fuck you!
K – Heh. You wish sparky.

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G - If you could kill any one person in the world and get a wish granted in return, would you ?
K - Yeah. I'd probably kill someone who needed to be killed...
G - No. Suppose you had to kill someone you knew and maybe even liked... ?
K - Arg! There should be a law against asking these questions.
G - There are no laws... pass the J...
K - You know sometimes I feel dulled by your sharpness, blank in comparison. I wish you'd treasure the veil you've pulled from over my eyes...
G - Youre like a caged animal, somebody must have changed you, it's like youre jaded, you were different when we first met.
K - I change with the seasons...

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K - Oi Sparky, am I really the best thing thats ever happened to you ?
G - No, but if I could, I would paint words for you in the sky..
K - What shit! Like thats supposed to make me feel better ? Words in the sky ? You're one of the most pretentious people I've ever met.
G – And you love me. : D
K - I love the way I feel when I'm with you. I love being with you, because you see past me and through me without hesitation. I'm deliciously ignored, therefore uninhibited. It's as if I'm looking into a mirror with my eyes closed….let me count the ways I thrive on your absence/presence...
G - Shut up, you're destroying me.

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You complete me, Sir.

He said he would take care of the plant I would leave him just like Leon.
But for now, I will look after the Marijuana sapling he leaves me tomorrow.

He is to me what bullets are to a Desert Eagle .44 magnum, , what a beer belly is to Homer, what nose jobs are to MJ, what Gabbar is to Sholey, what the batterypack is to my Lumix-lx1, what the midnight sky is to a vampirebat... So undeniably vital it almost hurts.
You complete me, Sir.

And in reference to the weather... it rained at dawn today and I woke up to the smell of wet mud. Bliss. There was venomous thunder in the afternoon while I was molding lumps of terracotta which was followed by a cold and slimy maggot festering belly of a rotting wild boar evening...

The vase BOT bought me took a suicide dive off the shelf when I wasnt paying attention. I picked up its remains from my marble floor and placed them back on the shelf near Hellhammer. It isnt time to let go.
It will never be time. : )

Symbolic

I smile broadly as I hand you my knife, your hand fighting your mind as your own jaw tightens with the imagination and realization about the harm you were prepared to inflict.

'Shit , I can't cut a girl... I could... I mean, I would, but...'

I understand. You'd be broken, because that is symbolic of the barriers you support yourself on.

Continuation of Survey Treatment for Mr Entry

Song I recommend -
Knock me out by Linda Perry and Grace Slick.
(Note latent obsession that will be potentially annoying to persons with limited patience)

Current Personal Issue -
I can never find any cookies in the word-cookie-jar during snacktime.

Last movie seen -
Crash. Woven and directed extremely intricately.
(On account of being severly baked during most of this brilliant movie, new tickets must be bought and made use of.)

Accomplishments for Feb 2006 -
I'm trying, trying really hard and failing...
holding back...holding back... holding back...giving in....starting over. Being a foodie is a bitch.

A bouquet of gasses in a bulging female abdomen. My first tattoo drawn yesterday, for BOT.

Current support system -
Calvin and Hobbes save me in a number of ways almost every day.

Bedtime Prayer -
'God bless Cetzine. Thank you'

Details of last imp meeting attended -
(Time - 2:48am)
Parties present:
Ms K. Nagpal.
Agenda:
Guitar lessons for technique, advanced pottery course and appt to complete tattoo on left arm are in order.
Details:
2 month pottery workshop will commence end march, tattoo appt scheduled for next week and guitar lessons the week after.
Meeting adjourned.
(Time - 2:49am)

Personal fact -
I've discovered that molding clay makes you forget the knot thats been present in your stomach for as long as you can rememeber. So does feeling skin on skin. *insert pleasant explicit memory here*: )

General fact not many are aware of -
Men were women for the first 6 weeks of their lives in the womb till the chromosome kicked in and THATS why they have those tiny useless nipples on their potential boobies. : o


*No furthur questions will be asked or answered henceforth in this entry. *nod**